I hate days like this…the insecure feeling…
Kind of like how it feels when you tell a joke and nobody laughs. That awkward feeling like I’m standing here looking stupid. And I’m so mean. Telling myself how a ponytail isn’t a hairdo, I need new shoes, my clothes don’t fit right, how can one face hold so many freckles? How did I get so many wrinkles at just 29?
I’m usually reasonably self-confident. But today, I’m just off. I’m usually very careful with the self-talk. When I was a teenager I remember somebody talking about how you should treat yourself as a friend would. How much would you like someone who tells you you’re fat or ugly or stupid? They probably wouldn’t be your friend. But we tell ourselves those things, and therefore end up not liking ourselves. So I really try, I do. Today, for some reason, I’m failing. Not sure why I’m putting this out there for everyone to see, as if being naked is going to make it better. 
Oh well. I said it. So now I’m naked AND insecure.
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I think we all have bad days like that Shannon. It so hard when we are bombarded with images of what ‘perfect’ is. And I really think we are our own worst critics. We see what noone else sees. I just know that God created us all, and would he make something ugly?
I could have written these exact words a few days back. Hang in there, tomorrow is a brand new day!
I think I just wrote almost exactly these same words to my dear, sweet boyfriend yesterday… who has been subjected to a radical surge of insecurity from me lately! You are not alone. But here are some very wise words from one of my dearest friends that I hope will be as meaningful to you as they have been to me…
“If I could give you one gift, it would be to see the world as others see you — not as you are seeing yourself right now.”
Be gentle with yourself. Allow yourself to go with the flow. It will pass, I promise!
Awww Shannon we ALL have those days!! I swear half the time I look down & realized that I have more of Alex’s lunch on me than he does & I’m out in public! LOL And today I had to give my boss a piece of paper that contained my height & weight… GAG! I wanted to say no but my employment more or less counts on that.
Anyway I love the notion of treating ourselves like friends. Be gentle, tomorrow will be better!
Moriah
PS: next time we come down I would LOVE to have lunch. I’m teaching at Picture Passion on 4/13.
We all have those days! I sometimes wonder if my friends are all really laughing about me behind my back. But then I realize I need to get over it and I know the people that really love me, and they are what matter.
Get a good night’s sleep and greet the sun with a new outlook in the morning.
You are not any other things you thought! You are beautiful, amazing and wonderful!
Brother… my post didn’t make much sense… sorry! YOu are amazing … we all have bad days.
Hey you, chin up!!!!!!! You are awesome….self nature is a powerful thing though isnt it..
You are beautiful. : )
Hey Shannon!
I go through these thoughts and feelings on a daily basis. I think you caught a glimpse of it over my emails….very hard on myself in every area of my life.
You are a beautiful girl and oh so young! You have beautiful children and you are amazingly talented!
I am trying to remember to embrace each moment of my life….which isn’t always easy when the kids are fighting or the laundry is piling up…but maybe I need to 1st embrace myself! You do that…because you are an embracable you!
Hugs!
Maureen
You have perfectly articulated the challenge that all women struggle with from time to time. Me definitely. Thanks for sharing. You are beautiful, wonderful and smart.
Shannon girl I know I feel like this too many days to count! I try to do the positive “self” talk, telling myself that I am ok, worthy, pretty etc. Hard I tell ya! But we are allowed to have those days once in awhile. Just as long as we pick ourselves up and get over it! You are strong (only 29 with so many children) and gorgeous! I am hoping you are feeling better today as I am late getting to this!
Hugs!
Shel