I don’t think most people would look at me and think "that girl’s gotta lose some L.B.s" It’s not an extreme problem. Yet. I’m at a crossroads right now. I’m at a point where I either need to buy new clothes to accommodate this body, or do something about the body. Because my clothes and my body are having a severe disagreement right now. I need to choose either my habits now, my current way of life,or make some changes. Apparently the Oreo diet just isn’t working. 
I have excuses. Lots of them. Maybe I should just accept the fact that I’ve had four kids, life is crazy, I love my treats, and stop getting down about my body. But the part of me that was always fit and trim wants to fight this. I feel gross. I can tell how it’s a vicious cycle. When I feel like this, I want to avoid thinking about it, just go on with my life and do things to avoid thinking about it. Food, while I love it, isn’t put into my forethought. I’m not planning healthy meals, it’s just easier to pick something up. Snack on something convenient rather than healthy. I’d rather just eat the darn thing without feeling the guilt of what it’s doing to my body. I find myself justifying things. Like, I work so hard, dealing with the kids, the house, everything all day, that I DESERVE to treat myself. Which is true. To an extent. I need to make an honest accounting of my actions. And do what I KNOW I should.
I’m going to choose ME. My healthy version of myself. The girl whose body I was proud of at one point. Gotta get back to that. And the "fat pants" that I’m now busting out of will serve as a reminder of that until they’re no longer too tight. I WILL NOT go buy myself new clothes until I’ve at least given several weeks of good effort to be a better girl. And I’m sure when I do go shopping, I’ll be much happier with the way the trim body looks in WHATEVER I try on than the "softer" one does. I put this up here to make myself accountable. To put this into my consciousness. I’m making a choice. Me first. Today.
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good for you shannon. take care of you and feel good about yourself, it’s so important.
may the force be with you shannon..I feel your pain…you can do it! miley
This is a tough one! Eating right. I have to, or at least I have to try, or my body screams back at me with my health issues. BUT today was a bad day, poutine from Burger King, then peanut butter choc. chips tonight. It is rough, tomorrow I will do better and so will you!
Hang in there and you can do it.
Shannon - I hear you! I decided about a year or so ago that I just needed to get myself back into shape. It is the habit of it, kwim? Once you get on the wagon, you don’t want to fall off again. Cheers to you - and good luck!
Wow. You go! You have inspired me more then anyone could! I have the same excuses. That I like what I eat, drink, etc. But then I look at my body and can not stand what it looks like! Ugh! I am doing it!!! I am losing this weight!
i am so feeling you!! i’ve been struggling with those same feelings….so more power to you!!
I think you look great! But I feel your pain — go you! :o)
p.s. I love your site.
Well now you tell me that the Oreo diet doesn’t work! I have been giving it my best effort.
Great post. Something I needed to read. Something I need to deal with. Thanks for sharing this part of yourself.
Correct me if I’m wrong, but didn’t you just stop breastfeeding - or are going to soon? Your body is probably still holding on to some of that reserve fat. I’m glad you’re choosing YOU, though!! : ) Go Shannon!
Hi Shannon, It’s difficult taking care of ourselves when there are so many emotional demands. My dh and I are now doing a little of a low carb diet, I don’t look bad people say, but I feel a bit of blubber around the buttocks. I do a few of Denise Austins exercises - wow and ouch … lol. I am considering joining her online ‘club’ too. Check it out - she even allows you to have Ice Cream with chocolate sauce on it. http://www.deniseaustin.com. Hope you have a wonderful day and take care of YOU today.
i feel your pain…that is why i went public on 2peas, and started the 2peas diet a couple weeks ago and dedicated my blog to the diet for 5 weeks…i felt that if i did that, it would motivate me to work harder since everyone knows that I am SUPPOSED to…great post!
you go girl!!! right there with ya chickie! all the best, even tho i think you are adoarble just as you are…but i know how it is!
hehe!
Um… go rip-up your yard. That’ll burn some calories. At least it’s what I hear.
Hilary
Boy can I feel ya girlfriend! I’m in the same boat…My biggest problem is that one of these boys has me in the kitchen 15 times a day and I’m compelled to grab something for myself each and every time :p
I wish you luck chica!
gosh i feel the same way…but with only 2 kids..i have been going to the gym but not eating good at all..thinking of joining WW again..not sure though b/c i am short and i am the weight most would love to be but it is FAT for me! that makes it hard. good luck!
I *so* know what you are talking about! I am working on it…but it will be a loooooooong process
You look amazing from the pictures I see….and inside…you totally rock so don’t forget that 
oh shannon…i can stand next to ya and make you feel better…
i totally know what you mean…i hate feeling all sluggish..which i do when i’m lazy & my clothes don’t fit. good luck gettin’ back on track!
oh, boy. BIG ditto. *sigh*
I totally know what you mean, and cannot even say that I am hanging on to baby weight
I am happy for you….something I need to do too!
good for you Shannon. I find myself in the “I deserve it” thinking a lot…and I don’t like where it’s gotten me.
Good luck!
Tell me about it! I just went swimsuit shopping. Talk about depressing…but motivating! Should have started 3-4 months ago. Just started jogging on Monday. I’m going to work off your inspiration. Thanks!
Tell me about it! I just went swimsuit shopping. Talk about depressing…but motivating! Should have started 3-4 months ago. Just started jogging on Monday. I’m going to work off your inspiration. Thanks!
yep..>I am with you…need to do the same…UGH…I hate gaining weight!!
oooooooh! I hear ya sister! I don’t ever want to be ‘dancer thin’ again, especially at my age…but this extra baggage is really starting to take its’ toll. I’m such a SLUG!! I love Weight Watchers…it worked very well in the past, but I might think about Jenny Craig if it’s not too expensive. I just don’t want to sit through any meetings (and DO NOT want to take the kids with me!) I also joined the Y (now I just have to haul my hiney over there! Good luck!
go shannon!!! you can do it!!!
Good luck! I feel the same way! You can do it!