This will be the second and last ugly Monday. Not because I can’t find ugly pictures, but because nobody wants to see them. Including me. This was taken by Shelby.

Ok. Now that I have that out of my system…

I’ve been super busy the past week. I’m trying to update everything photography business related. When I started the business a year ago, I was excited. Until I launched it. Then I freaked out. It became an extremely scary thing for me, having expectations and trying to be a business person AND a creative person at the same time. It’s hard. Add in mommying, laundry and cleaning, and there were several times over the past year that I felt ready to close up shop.

But I survived. I got a little breathing room. And I re-evaluated what I want to be doing and where I want to go. I realized that I do love what I do. I’m excited about giving people tangible memories of their families. I just don’t want to sacrifice my family in the process. And I don’t have to.

I have been afraid to even face the business. I’ve told people before that it felt like a monster that was still small, but if I gave it too much attention it would grow to be a monster that eats my family. But it doesn’t have to be that way. I can keep it under control and have it serve me, instead of eating me.

I’m ready now. Excited. Happy. Glad I can finally face this monster and groom it and make it pretty and teach it tricks that make people laugh. So it’s back on. I’m ready to make a go of it, for real this time. I’ve been updating my website and re-evaluating the way I do things. Be prepared to see changes coming soon.

ps… If you live in the Salt Lake City area or in the Philadelphia area and are interested in having some portraits taken, let me know! I’m planning trips out there this year and might as well make them "business trips."